A Tough Week

It’s been a tough week, huh? I mean….I know it sounds irrational to some, but us in North America and Central America had an eclipse this week, and it nearly took me and the other astro girlies OWT. This has been a tough week…for me, I’ve felt more self-doubt this week than I have in a long time (like 7 months? Pretty good run).

But I have recently found this book–or maybe it found me– called “A Course in Miracles.” I’ve been reading this book like it’s Harry Potter and I’m in 10th grade. (Whew, aged myself there.) But seriously, y’all ever loved a book so much that you’re happy it’s long as hell because it means you get to spend more time with it? When I say I love this book.

This book is why I’ve been studying my whole life on linguistics, mental health, self-healing, religions/spirituality, and metaphysics. It’s so I could comprehend this book and find a way to share it.

A Course in Miracles says that we are God’s creation. (Here, the term “God” represents the creator and source of eternity, wholeness, and love in whichever religion/spirituality/philosophy resonates with you.)

We are all God’s creation. God, in their perfection, cannot create imperfection. God created us, and God created everything around us, and they infused all of their creations with their perfection. (Note: To me it doesn’t make sense to assign God/the universe/the ultimate source of light and love and eternity, a biological sex, which is a trait of a physical body).

So if we’re so dang perfect, why all the imperfection?

Because peace does not attack.

See the thing is that, like, waaaaaaay back in the day, humankind got it in our own heads that we are separate from God. If you’re Abrahamic, then what Adam and Eve ate from the tree of knowledge, introduced the idea that we are separate from God and each other and everything and everyone. AKA the ego.

In reality, we are like fingers on the hand of God, or more like one cell on one finger on one hand of God. We’re there, we’re part of everything, and we all have a necessary and equally important role to play in the totality of All.

But we are God’s creations, and God’s creations can create, of course. We can create in perfection and love or we can “make” from the ego and fear, but we cannot do both.

The idea comes down to time versus eternity and the battle plays out in our brilliant, creative thoughts. See, here’s the most rational, non-metaphysical way I can explain it:

Your thoughts influence your emotions. Your emotions become your mood. Your mood influences your behavior and habits. Your habits and behavior have consequences. It’s not punishment. What goes up must come down. Or, say, if you spend all your money of travel and designer shit you don’t even wear while teaching English abroad then you might have to work a stressful ass job to make up for a decade of frivolity. (Super relatable I know lol) Consequences. Not punishment.

So we have God, who is love and the source and eternity. And we have the ego who is fear and finite and time-bound. So the ego fights for itself in our mind. It knows it’s finite. It knows that it is a fractured idea of separation and fear rather than of light and love.

The ego know’s it’s ultimately not necessary, and that is why it’s out here fighting for its life yall. Putting all these “what ifs” and “worst case scenarios” to block us from the wholeness and love and eternity that is who we as the creations of God are. Fundamentally. All of us. Every single one. Even you. Even your parents. Even my childhood bully who told everyone I was gay (not that there’s anything wrong with that!) in 5th grade who added me on facebook the other day. IDC that it’s been 27 years. <–But see there? See how quickly the ego gets in there? She’s another mitochondria in God’s perfect cell, same as I and all of God’s creations are.

The idea is that ideas spread, and when they spread far and wide enough they show up in the physical world. Hence money, the patriarchy, racism, houses, capitalism, clothing, all of it. All of the things we humans make to fill a gap that our egos created, not God.

Maybe this sounds a little absurd. How can everything be due to the spread of ideas? How can we be surrounded by eternity and perfection, especially when we account for the suffering of humans, animals, plants, bodies of water, etc.? How is that not real?

It’s real because we made it real. Us, in perceived abandonment, thinking we were created by noone and are entirely separate, have brought these shitty ideas into life.

The solution? The first step at least?

Dream a new dream. It’s a tough time right now on this earth, but there is peace and love and wholeness available to us all of the time. It’s a matter of unlearning the habit of fear, of letting the ego die, and of training the mind to think friendly, creative thoughts.

Because peace does not attack. The love and wholeness and perfection that surrounds us is incapable by nature of bonking us on the head or forcing us to see things its way. Peace does not attack. All these ego-based and fear-based guardrails that we used to build these enormous walls around ourselves have to be dismantled so that we can see what’s already there.

Life is hard at times. We’re in this together. Let’s just try to think nicer thoughts and to let the love in a bit more. And, most importantly, let’s dream a new dream.